The picture on the left was taken on the 6th April 2014 and the one on the right was taken today, the 6th April 2015. The one on the left was taken on my due date, I was a young woman on the cusp of the biggest change of my life. I was excited and terrified all at the same time, not to mention pretty uncomfortable. I had no idea how I was going to handle this parenting adventure, no idea what sort of person was growing inside me. All I knew was that I loved it and couldn’t wait to meet it.
So today. Today I stood in the very same spot with my little girl in my arms. Almost through the first year of parenting. I still wake up excited and terrified all at the same time. As I’ve learnt about my daughter I have learnt more about myself than I ever thought possible. I’ve learnt that I can multi task very well, I can do almost everything one handed and I can get by on only a few hours sleep. Things that used to feel like the end of the world are now no more than a blip in my day. My body has learnt how to sway just right to calm her when she cries, it’s learnt how to nourish her and how to adjust to create a comfy place for her to rest at any given moment.
When I look at the two photos together like this I can see any number of differences between them. Everything in the first one just oozes peace, my hair is perfectly in place and I’ve had time to pose ‘just right’. The second shows me that I’m about two months past due a haircut and I have no time to worry how I look as I entertain my daughter so she stays still long enough to get a couple of pictures. But, you know what, the second photo may be messy and chaotic but it is also so full of love. And that’s the difference this year has made. Life is messier now and more chaotic but it is so full of love.