The further I get in this pregnancy the more the Mum guilt kicks in. I’ve always tried to get out with Lyra every single day, whether that’s into town, a trip to the park or just a long walk searching for the best sticks. But I’ve been tired and slow these past couple of weeks and it’s become more and more of a struggle to get out and about with Lyra. A lot of that had to do with my low iron and so I have got better recently but I know that as I get closer to the end of my pregnancy things will get more difficult again. I want to be the best Mama to Lyra that I possibly could me and to me that definitely means giving her the chance to explore the world around her and be outside as much as possible.
Whilst I was in my cloud of exhaustion before my iron tablets kicked in I suddenly had an idea. It seemed so simple and I couldn’t believe that I hadn’t thought about it before. We could go out in our garden when I wasn’t up for adventures further afield. This probably seems obvious to most of you reading but we really don’t use our garden much. It’s on a slope, has a drain cover in the middle, and high hedges either side so doesn’t get a lot of sunshine. It wouldn’t be my first choice for a nice afternoon out but let’s be honest, beggars can’t be choosers and it Lyra got a few hours in the garden it would be better than nothing. If I could find something to keep her occupied for a few hours in it!
I needn’t have worried because as soon as we were out there Lyra ran off exploring. She was wearing her fairy wings because, well why not I guess, and soon she had grabbed a bucket and started collecting leaves. I must have just sat and watched her for almost an hour. She picked leaves off the hedges, put them in her bucket and then when she had a couple in there tip the bucket upside down and throw the leaves. Such a simple thing but she giggled the whole time. I could never have come up with that game, instead trying to plan something more elaborate but it was the perfect lesson in letting Lyra take the lead. Sometimes I don’t need to do it all. Sometimes all you need is a hedge and a bucket.